One Habit That I Want to Change and Another I Am Proud Of – A Personal Journal

It has been more than a year, since I last wrote a blog in Wander Bird. I still don’t know why. They use a term called “Writer’s block”, but I don’t think I was experiencing that. I was not stuck midway. I had just lost the urge to sit down and write. Maybe, the mind was unknowingly very pre-occupied. Only a writer understands how a peace of mind is the only requirement to be able to write. That’s when the words flow at its supreme best, just like the river flowing its natural flow to meet the ocean.

Today, if I sit down to think of it, there can be many reasons for that lack of stillness in the mind or no reason at all. But one thing is for sure that writing has always been my most desirable way to heal. And if I stop writing, my soul will certainly perish. So, at a very beautiful beginning of this year, I promised myself to get back to what I do best – write till I drop! And here I was, scrolling through my favorite community of bloggers, Blogchatter to check out what’s latest in the field of blogging. That’s when I came across this very interesting campaign called the “Blogchatter Blog Hop” – a new way to write collectively.

And this week’s writing prompt is – One daily habit you want to change and another you are proud of.

It is prompts like this which make me really feel alive. Because it makes you think and self-reflect. How often do we do that anyway? Especially with the busy schedules of adulthood, do we even have time to reflect on who we were and who we have become? I really doubt this. Nevertheless, let’s try.

A Habit That I Want To Change

They say that “Habits die hard.” To this, I always have a response saying, “Maybe your efforts were not hard enough.” It takes few months to rewire completely and develop a new habit. All it takes is dedication and discipline. There might be many habits that I would like to change in myself because I anyway consider myself a complete “work-in-progress”. But having said that, today I want to talk about that one annoying habit that I would definitely want to change in myself. It is the habit of rephrasing and reliving conversations in my head.

Be it good or bad, if I have had a conversation which has created an impact in some way, I will definitely reenact and relive that whole scene all over again in my mind, often deciphering different perspectives of the same conversation, trying to extract maximum positives from it, thinking about how the tone could have been set better or how the approach to the whole conversation could have been different. That’s also why I tend to reread even chats (typed conversations, precisely). I agree that having good analytical skills and indulging in self-reflection is a good personality trait to have. But I have understood that not every life scenario needs to be professional-level analyzed and typed into a tabular format in a power point presentation. We should allow some conversations to pass. Else, the mind is simply working overtime and overburdened with thoughts on which one does not have a control on, often resulting in mental fatigue. So, I reread chats less frequently these days. With time, I have developed coping mechanisms to deal with this, but yet to change this habit completely. As I said, still a “work-in-progress”, but getting there slow and steady.

A Habit That I Am Proud Of

Another aspect that I want to talk about is that one habit I am really proud of. Well, it is actually giving me immense pleasure while I type this. No one had literally taught this to me in childhood, but I am sure I must have picked it up at home by watching my parents maybe. It is the habit of neatly dusting and making my bed, the first thing in the morning after I wake up. Call it a strange kind of discipline, but that’s how I always like it to be. I might get up and head to the washroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. But then, the next thing which I do, once I am out of the washroom is make my bed.

People have sometimes called me extra-particular, tagged this habit of mine as an obsession etc etc. I have stopped explaining myself to such people. Nothing disturbs me. My personality can never be obsessed about anything in general. This habit of mine simply gives me a sense of discipline and always kickstarts my day on the right note. It just feels like the first task of the day ticked off the checklist and rest everything will automatically fall into place. And oh that lovely smell and feel of a freshly spread bedsheet! I know what I know. This is one very important habit which I am genuinely very proud of, and I hope to continue doing this all my life.

Nothing can beat a fresh and positive start to the day after all!

This post is a part of Blogchatter Blog Hop – A new way to write collectively.